And I still refuse to be a skeptic....~

Came to Gandhinagar on the 7th of July. Since then, nothing, and I mean NOT ONE THING has gone right.... lost phone, non-weird people acting weird, my go-to person is not my go-to person anymore, money just seems to be flying out of my wallet all on its own (I swear! its true!), lost a friend or two (no, they're not dead), Reliance is, by far, the worst telecom service provider EVER!; and i can keep writing on... but it just brings back bitter memories... (yes, they are memories..cos i still remember them :/)

You'd think it cant get any worse than this.... but then that's cos you don't have a professor that makes you feel like you're the dumbest person on the face of the Earth... I actually do. And boy! is it terrifying... you just know he's going to ask something you don't really know the answer to... and you're gonna curse the very day you were born...

I'm blabbering again... right?

So... moving on...

Two very basic concepts...
1) Live and let live...
2) If you're a happy person, don't rub it in!!

Happy much?? Don't make us gloomy, crabby people feel like we are fails in life!!!

And what is with this compulsive habit of taking every issue into your hands?? Who made you lot the God of issue-management??? just be and let us be!!!

Hahaha... i know... I'm dreaming of Utopia...

Speaking of.... You know this world peace bullshit?? its not ever happening... took me long enough to understand and get over the whole "anything war can do, peace can do better" shit. (wont stop me from wearing the tee, though...)

People thrive on violence... its what gives them a sense of adventure... a sense of satisfaction... every night...thousands people pray to their respective Gods, thanking the Gods for getting them through another day in this world full of bomb blasts, vehicle accidents, sexual harassment, natural disasters and what not... I know there are others who are not so lucky, but that's just the circle of life...

I believe that everything in life has BALANCE. In a country like India where mortality rates are comparatively high and the population is so high... poverty, crime and bomb blasts help maintain balance in the area... In places like Japan, where population is very less and mortality rate is very very low... earthquakes, tsunamis, volcanoes and nuclear mishaps occur to keep the balance...

I also happen to believe that, if something is meant to happen, it will... by all means, happen... So all I've gotta do is try and get over all these 'problems' I've faced and move on... They were destined to happen and so they did...

Finally,

Live in the moment and believe in destiny... And you'll never regret any decision you ever made~

Cos forever is a really long time...~

TO BE READ IN JUNE 2032

Dear 40 year old me,

Hows it going, old lady?? You single? married? Kids? No kids? Happy? Unhappy? I hope its all 'sugar, spice and everything nice' when you are reading this... I hope ur reading this in a gazebo in Bali... or maybe in Central Park... remember how you always wanted to go there? Or maybe in Eastern Europe... wowww... the adventures I'm gonna get into!!!

On this day, 20 years ago you had an amazing bike ride in the rain with your dad. Its gonna be one of the best memories you've had.. so cherish it. Even today.

Tell me one thing... did i ever lose weight in these past 20 years? Haha... if I did, im mighty proud of myself... if i didnt... well.. i'll definitely start tomorrow... :D Remember all these amazing people you knew from college?? Are you still in touch with all of them? You better be!! Cos I can vouch for the fact that they're too awesome to lose.

I bet you dont remember half the cool things you've done so far.. it'll be one hell of a lengthy post if i actually list down every bit of awesomeness that came out of us... but let me tell you one thing... You have nothing to be ashamed of. You had a great two decades... met amazing people... got great gifts for your birthday... you have never been surprised so far... so if mine or your friends read this earlier, they better take the cue... :D

People considered you to be really immature and childish back when you were 20. Lemme tell you one thing... i know the decisions you have taken, the choices and sacrifices you have made... and none of them have been anywhere close to childish... so dont take peoples' comments to heart...

I know you must have changed over time... everyone changes... but i hope your sense of humor is still intact... I hope that even now, at any point, you're still the funniest person in the room...

Truckloads of love,
Your twenty year-old self...

Cos we cant jump the track, we're like cars on a cable...~

A post long overdue.

So a leaf fell from a mighty old tree. Does the tree go around asking for sympathy for its lost part? Or does it mourn for a few minutes and get back to its job of creating more leaves?

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Secluded, alone, no bonds, no ties, no affection, no attraction, no love... hard life, a life like that... but guess what.... *challenge accepted!*

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Pune. Environment. Living alone. Excitement. Exploring. Learning to ride a motorbike. Das awesome German. Ich heiße Ashwini. CO2. Trekking. Photography. Afrocircus. King Julien. McDonalds saturation. Sustainable Transportation. So far, sooo good. I ♥ Pune.

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Game of Thrones!!! So amazing!!! Favourite Character... Arya Stark... Valar Morghullis, baby!!! :D But I'm currently in that phase where I'm happy cos I've read so much and its so good... but sad cos I have noone to discuss it with... :/

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Its gonna be a peaceful 20th birthday... phones off by 10... lay low all day. Just cos I feel like it... Dont know why. Maybe its just 'growing up'... That doesnt one bit change how epic the day really is, though... Super excited!!!!!

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Love will keep us alive... ~

Talking to people, reading newspapers, watching tv, surfing the internet, or just taking a walk down the street....everything I seem to do these days proves one fact over and again.... We live in such a screwed up world!!!

Theres the environment which is screwed up... the glaciers are melting, the temperatures are rising, theres earthquakes, tsunamis, the greenhouse effect, nuclear explosions and what not...

Then the economy... any country you pick, their economy is screwed beyond repair... When you get to the nuances of the economy of countries like Greece or even the US or India for that matter, you realize what "shit" really is, and how deep humankind is buried in it...

Next come the policy-makers... the politicians... these crooks are paid by the people to be their voice at a national level... and what do they do? Cheat, bribe, use public money for private purposes, interfere, ruin... and basically do everything they can do wrong.
Can the honest politician please stand up?

And then there are the common people... Us... with our sad little teary eyes... harassed and troubled from every angle humanly possible... The humble race... WAIT! We are no less... no less at all... we bloody well know our rights... but the duties? I dont think so... And why is that? We dont take responsibility... Yet we're the first ones to point a finger at those who do...
Double Standards, anyone??

And thats not even half of how screwed up this world is....

After all this, guess what we learn in college...? Sustainable Development... use of resources in such a way that theres plenty for the furure generations...
YEAH.OKAY.We'll do all the sustainable development you want us to do. But do you really want to bring your children into such a screwed up world??
That, apparently, is the million dollar question...

Ask me, and i'd tell you I wish the Mayan prediction is true. This world really needs to end. The madness has to stop. The sooner the better...

When I started writing this post, I was going to end it with the classic "but LOVE will keep us alive" but as I near the end, it hits me.... Even love is not enough for this world... so what we need is one big apocalypse!!!!

That Weirdo with 5 Colours in her Hair...

Arguments... spats... tiffs... fights... duels... disagreements... all of them, i've had. You gotta know when to give up on an argument... and when to hang on to your point...

At what point does it all really stop mattering? So you said something and another person disagreed...and you persistantly stuck to your point. In the end..turns out you were right all along... that very moment you feel ecstatic...but thats all there is to it. That moment. And once that moment has passed, no one gives a damn bout whether you were right or wrong... not even you.

So does that mean we spend countless hours of our proverbial 'only one life' doing an absolutely pointless activity?? I dont know.. but then again.. im no one to judge...considering i'm the one coming up with this pointless post anyway...

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People are complicated. You never know what they're gonna say or do next. They're unpredictable like that. And it annoys me to no end... the fact that you're not prepared for when they say silly things or do mean things.
A little heads up should always be given. My opinion.

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The title of this post.. i want to be that someday. I want to be the weirdo with five colours in her hair.
I want to drive an auto.
I want to run crazy on the roads when theres traffic.
I want to eat at a restaurant and run away without paying. Once.
I want to be courageous enough to go up to a person and tell hem how much i dislike them.
I want to try out every occupation in the world which doesn't have any contact with animals, birds or the like.
I want to be brave enough to adopt a pup. (And name it Box)
I want to pack a bag and just leave... hitchhike around the country and then the world.
I want to meet all the people i idolize so much.
I want to show my parents how greatful i am for all that they've given me.
I want to be the reason people dont throw waste anywhere other than the bin..even at the cost of these people hating me.
I want to taste everything that is possibly eaten and drunk around the world.
I want to do, have and be a million things i am not.

Someday.

And when the day comes, there will be a blogpost.

We should get jerseys, cos we make a good team...

Hello, my Big Ego. how have you been?? Its been a while since we met... I've been busy compromising, apologizing and missing you. Dearly. But I know you'll soon fight your way back to me. You always do that.
But i've realized that compromising and apologizing is not that hard to do... especially if you're doing it for the people you care about. That being said, I need you to come and make sure i'm not being taken for granted here.
Much love.

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Counter Strike!!!!! my latest fascination. Its even fun to watch. And i'm gonna learn how to play. From a pro. :D I think i'm on a LAN-gaming phase or something. DotA and CounterStrike. My progress in them will be updated on the blog. Now, we'll see how that works out. Should be fun.


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When life gives you lemons.... go write how you feel about getting lemons.

Many people, I've seen, find it so hard to express how they feel. My advice, write it down. You don't need to be an amazing writer, you don't need to play with words, you don't need to use big words, your poems don't need to rhyme. Hell, others don't even need to understand what you've written. Its for you. You'd be amazed at  how beautiful even the simplest of writings seem.

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After this disastrous past week, things I've learnt:

Time has come for us to know what we're good at. To know what good we can bring to a team/ project. To cover up our flaws in thesaurus-picked words... To know our strengths and weeknesses. And to fill out a million applications so that atleast one of them will get you an internship or maybe an extra credit.

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What has happened to all of us?... wheres the adventure and all the fun gone?  The routine and the monotonous is pulling us all down. When did you last randomly hug someone, just cos you felt like it? When did you last get on a train or plane and go to a completely new city for a few days? When did you last go to a park and imitate others' walk and make a total fool of yourself? When did you last pick u a water balloon, throw it on a complete stranger and run away like a madman?

I know one thing. The last time I did all this was a very very very long time ago.

Hoping for a miracle.

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Cos I'll be by your side, every step of the way...

This is the second of  the many posts that will feature poems written by my little brother, Rohan. All his work is going to be posted on this blog cos its my way of telling him how awesome his writing is.

This is an untitled poem. Its also the most profound piece of writing I've come across in recent times. And i'm immensely proud of him.

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If  I live long to see another century,
If I live to see a winner's never ending spree,
If I do live to see the enchanting Kailash,
I f I do live to swim the Pacific in a flash,
Do tell me that I lived my life till the very end.
Do tell me that I am a Legend.

If I just could see my dream once again,
If I could regain those crucial moments of 2009,
If I could just decide which was that one lane,
If I would ever see heaven and its inspirational divine,
I'll tell my friends that they missed it all,
I'll tell them that without them, I'm sure to fall.

If you always stood beside me,
If you just said that you'll be here for me,
If life has just no dead ends,
If it was just my circle of friends,
I will tell my kids that they are "The Ones",
Those Legends who used Roses for Guns.

I am no Perseus to make it to the underworld,
I am no Kratos to slay the whole world,
I am no shooting star which makes all wishes come true,
But yes, I am a small  hope that lies somewhere within you.
I am all alone, with no legion to support me,
That's why, now I'm starting this new legacy.

The thoughts we pursue become dreams,
Its all okay, when you conceive things, just as it seems,
Raconteurs are found everywhere,
But Legends, they are found where no one cares.
Looking behind now, I do not regret,
We all are 'LEGENDS', lets not forget.

Young, Wild and Free....

3's biggest problem; 3 cares too much. Those 3 cares for, 3's friends, parents, sibling.... 3 loves them all... to the moon and back. So much love, that it is taken for granted. Many times. And when that happens, it is not pleasant. At all.

3 is human too. 3 needs to be shown that 3 is cared for. That it worries people when 3 acts unusual. That people don't like 3 being sad.

Hopefully people will stop taking 3 for granted. Perhaps, people will respect 3's opinion more. One day 3 will be loved back by the people 3 loves.

Someday.

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I know you're going through a hard time. But you have me. You have us. We'd beat up people if that's what will  make the hurt go away. You know we will.

You and I... we're Meredith and Christina... You'll get through this... and emerge better than ever. I'll make sure you do.

Trust me.

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What is with people throwing kachra everywhere. Its wrong. EVERYBODY needs to understand that. 2 simple steps to follow when you have kachra:

1)Look for a dustbin
2)Throw INSIDE the dustbin

A dodo could understand that. Yet human beings fail to comprehend and execute these simple rules.

Your education, your achievements, your wealth, your outer beauty, your morals, your ethics... they have no value when your basic concept of civic sense and community living is completely fucked up.

~Just food for thought. Make sure you throw the wrapper in the dustbin~

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I was at the saloon the other day, and this employee at the saloon started chatting up with me. You'd think what she said would seem weird, but really, I was only very very amused. :P

Lady(L)- Aap South Indian ho?
Me- haan.
L- lagta hi hai. South Indian log hote hi hain itne dark.
Me- hmm...
L- Bhagvaaan ne aap logon ko fair nahi banaya, looks nahi diye, lekin dimag bohot diya hai na. Bohot intelligent hote hain aapke log. Mujhe pata hai...
Me- *facepalm*

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If only there was a limit to boredom...

Do not feel like studying.

Will do anything but that.

Public Administration tomorrow.

Worst subject ever.

Don't be surprised.

I'm still gonna give the UPSC exams.

Some lame guy sending loads of 9gag pics on IPmsg.

Dude, everyone's already seen them.

Don't get the point.

I have a friend who is annoying but awesome.

Even when she does (or says) really stupid stuff... for a change...

Hahahahaa.

Lame 9gag guy still sending photos.

Saddest part: i'm saving them.

My roommate: sleeping 24x7.

I hope she doesn't read this.

Or shes going to be real angry.

Gogo that she is.

I make fun of her sometimes. many times.

I hope she takes it in good humor.

I mean her well.

Always have, always will.

I want a pod racer.

And I want R2D2.

And I want a light saber.

And I want Jar Jar Binks.

And I'm sounding like a person who just watched Starwars for the 1st time.

I did in fact just watch star wars.

First time EVER.

Wonder why I didn't watch it before.

Have a long list of things to do.

But I choose to write this crap instead.

Everything happens for a reason.

Wanna watch The Lion King.

Again.

Been ages since I watched it last.

Awesome childhood memories of it I have.

Keerti is coming to darling Padpoo.

Cant wait.

So much to catch up on.

Padpoo people paying for crap.

Seen the FLARE website?

No, I'm not attaching the link here.

And I do hope, for your sake that you don't find the link.

Abomination is the word.

I believe in finding humor even in the saddest of situations.

Its gonna get me into trouble someday.

Till then, i'll be the one having the last laugh.

lol.

okaynowenough.

shouldstartstudyingagain.

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Cos i'm Leaving on a Jetplane...

Change... happens all the time.. you never come to terms with it immediately.. but it happens nevertheless... People tell you that you've changed... and we always say... 'what crap!?! m still the same old me"... but every little cell in your body knows you're lying... still... you deny.

You deny cos being the "same old you" sounds like cuddling into a warm fuzzy blanket. It makes you feel secure... gives you a sense of identity and recognition...

When someone says you've changed, once this blanket is forcefully taken away from you, the emptiness and the nakedness hits you like an avalanche in the cold bad world...

And you feel dark, depressed, spiteful, lonely, anti-social... and all the things you shouldn't be...

only way out = accepting change!!

Maybe... just maybe.. accepting the change with arms wide open is the only way to feel better... maybe people who loved you before you changed will eventually learn to love you for new reasons... Or they can tell you whats going wrong.. and you can change back into being you're previous own self.... ;))

And since a blog post is is empty without a quote...

"Change; we don’t like it, we fear it, but we can't stop it from coming. We either adapt to change or we get left behind. And it hurts to grow, anybody who tells you it doesn’t is lying. But heres the truth: the more things change, the more they stay the same. And sometimes, oh, sometimes change is good. Oh, sometimes, change is ... everything."

So... go ahead... embrace the change.. B-)

Yes, I have changed... :)

My little Brother....

So tomorrow is my Parents' 21st wedding anniversary....

And my little brother wanted to give them a surprise. So he decided to make them a card. And he wrote them a poem. The following poem:

He was 31 and she was 28
Thats when he n she became we
5,10,15,20 years they learnt how to live together
A compliment for each other,they took steps one for the other
They had two kids which they themselves call as "Gems",the elder harsh at her tone but kind at heart and the younger one just playing his little kind part
They fight ,they laugh & they toil till they barf
Love for all that's wat they said
they healed us everytime we bled
-I have no words to explain how awesome they are!!
I am in loss of words to respect their gratitude
&just proud to be their heir!

 And as I read it... i came up with this overwhelming feeling.. One I cant really put down in words... The kind of feeling you get when you realize that the person you've  always seen as a little kid has finally grown up...

Rohan you're the COOLEST brother. Please stay this awesome foreverr!!!

ILOVEYOU.. :))

Ramblings...

Yeah... its been getting really hard to stay quiet..  Just the thing i wanted to avoid has finally happened. Its like the whole world is conspiring to fight with me. like a "unanimous hate movement".

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I'm a write-r... when things get tough to talk/yell about.. i write... As I was standing there, crying like a two year old who saw a scary thing or something, I realized.... im braver than this... im better than this. Yeah.. im weak like that.. but not anymore.

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So when does a deal become a REALLY BIG DEAL?? cos the last time I checked, it still didn't matter. So I missed the party. boo hoo. You were expecting me there?? well heres food for thought... Life is a bitch.. Lets just get over it. we're grown up now.

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The advertisement for "moods condom"... hahahaaaaa... real funny. 

speaking of....."mood nahi hai" I say this all the time. but..wtf does that mean? a lot of talk bout the right/wrong "mood" got me thinking. Am I using it as a reason to get out of doing things I really dont want to, but have to do?

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I'm going to college in 2 days.. Im sure a lot of people are gonna say "good riddance".. to them i say.... mwhahahahaaaa I AM GONNA BE BACK... but fortunately for me and you, not before May.. :D

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Sherlock Holmes.. Game of Shadows.. wowwwwwww... What a movie!!! Totally amazing. 

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ok... now enough rambling. anyway its not like you're actually reading anything...

hahhaa... just checking. 

.... ending with some positive thinking: I LOVE MYSELF! :))